Surprising My Little Sister


So last month my sister’s favourite DS game went in the wash. Well…all her DS games went into the wash but her favourite one was the only one that didn’t recover after the tragic incident.

So today I had to go pick up some groceries and I decided to walk around downtown, because there were a few shops I wanted to check out. I never left campus last year because I didn’t have to buy food and I was always home on the weekends (I couldn’t sleep). While I was walking I came across this little video game store and decided I’d pop in and look around.

Then girl asked if she could help me find a specific game and I told her I was looking for “Fire Emblem.” The girl thankfully had the game because I couldn’t find a copy of it on the self, and I bought it.

I’d felt like getting something for my little sister all day. I saw earrings and necklaces that she might like and I saw some cool posters but I remembered how heartbroken she looked when he game didn’t work…so I spent as much as I did on groceries to buy her a new copy.

It isn’t her birthday or anything. I just felt like surprising her. I can’t wait until she see’s it.

Friday Mornings with Ryder. “You Wanna Date?” ft. Orion.

“Alright. Puff up that chest. Keep that head up. Good, now make sure you’ve got your shirt on frontwards…we don’t want another one of those incidents. Good. Good.”

I blankly stared at myself in the mirror. “I didn’t sleep last night.”

“Forget sleep! Who needs sleep! This isn’t about you sleeping this is about you being confident and awesome and going out there and saying, ‘Why hello there’.”

I groaned. “Dude…can’t I just like not?”

“You wanna date?”


“Then don’t be such a little–.”

“OH KAY! Sheesh…no need to be so hard on me. I’m still figuring this stuff out okay?”

“Well figure this stuff out faster Ryder! You’ve only got so much time!”

I dragged my feet back to bed. “Wake me up when the sun’s actually in the sky.”

“The sun waits for no man!”

“Yah…that’s why I’m waiting for the sun.” I sighed. Then I sighed again and rolled onto my back. Then I rolled onto my stomach again and propped my chin up. “I can’t sleep.”

“Love will do that to you.”

“I’m not in love. I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I snapped.

They chuckled. “Then why were you so excited for Friday?”

“Because. I have lots of exciting things to do on Friday.”

“Like what, you don’t even go out for drinks in the evening like normal people. What is wrong with you? Who sits at home and watches cartoons until bed?”

“We do that Orion. We do that.”

“Yah well…I want to do something different this weekend! Let’s get ourselves a date!”

I rolled onto my back again. “I dunno bruh.”

“It’ll be FUN!”

“It’ll be fun…it’ll be fun. Go by yourself.”

“Why are you in denial? Stop denying your true feelings!” cried Orion.

I sighed. “Because I’m not going to let myself get caught up in my emotions and have my heart torn out again. Remember last time?”

“Last time was different. This time it’s for real!” Orion shouted, shaking me. “Doesn’t it feel different?”

“Remember how I felt like throwing up yesterday?”


“Stop shaking me…my stomach feels gross.”

“Oh great! Getting all gross on the weekend! How could you! You planned this! You planned this Ryder! I’ll never forgive you!”


“Hey Ryder, your alarms going off.”

“Hooray…” I moaned, pulling myself out of bed. “I’m going to blog now.”


“I don’t have a date! Do you see me dating anyone!? NO! I’m going to blog like a respectable person and then I’m going to get dressed and blah, blah, blah, blah!”

Orion frowned. “Fine. Be that way…jerk.”

Enjoy your Friday folks.

I’ll be getting ready for class now…since I’ve got nothing better to do. I love my life.




I was nice enough to clean the bathroom by myself this morning and it’s already messy again! Seriously you guys?

How do you make that much of a mess in like…4 hours!? How!?

I’m just going to…pretend like I saw nothing. I’m going to go about the rest of my evening…enjoying this delicious food and trying to get some more homework done.

Not exactly looking forward to my one class tomorrow. Oh well. It might get better…it might not.

— R.

Thought Process

Text me. Text me. Text me. Text me.

Can you just text me?

I’m not texting first again. I’m not going to seem desperate.



I ate too much.

I don’t want to seem annoying.

What if they don’t text me all week?

They’re busy. Stop freaking out.

I want to go back to bed. I’m tired.


I need to buy an envelope.

Well…I do have homework to do.

I just want to sleep.

I just want you to text me.Talk about something random. I really don’t care.

La la la!

Because the sky is blue it makes me cry.

Oh brain. You’re so brainy.

Tick tock. 3 o’clock.

I’m gonna go sleep and when I wake up there better be a message from you.

Or not…

I mean…you could text me tomorrow.


I guess.

Not like you have to.

I really need to use the bathroom.

Why does it have to rain?

Homework…why do you exist? Be gone with you.

Surprisingly enough, this counts as part of my homework.

Sit and write down whatever thoughts come to your head. What do you think about?

I think… I don’t understand this whole texting thing. I also think I’m overthinking. I also think I really…really need to use the bathroom. Roomie get out of the shower! I gotta go so bad!

Ugh….why can’t my head be quiet for more than a minute?

— R.

Mouse Song


I want to sing you a song

To make your pain go away

But my lips are dry

And my throat is tight.

I want to hold you up

I want to keep you safe

But my arms are weak.

Little mouse so meek.

Wish I knew what to do

I wish I knew what to say

But when I try something

It feels like nothing.

Don’t want my heart to break

Don’t want to make a mistake

Before you go away.

Please, don’t go away.

Stay another day.

Stay another day.

For Nana and Granddad.

You’ve always filled my world with wonder.

Please give me the chance to return the favour.

Love, R.