Goodbye High School

Yesterday I finished my final exams and all I could think was, “Boy did time fly.” It feels as if moments ago I was sword fighting with my cousins by the lake, and then in a blink of an eye I’m an eighteen year old kid sitting on my bed reading all of the short stories I’ve written over the last two years.

I’ve said this many times in the last month that I am ready to move on to the next chapter of my life. I’m ready to try and do things on my own without my parents coaching me along the way (though their coaching does help me come to a decision faster…). I told my sister multiple times, “High school is done and I have no regrets.” I’ve forgiven the people that hurt me, left behind those that weren’t the right company, and successfully finally figured out which studying methods work best for me (insert props/daps here).

If there was anything that I could have changed, it would have been to get the nerve to ask an old friend of mine, “What did I do wrong?” Though I’ve told myself after not speaking to them for two years that I am over it. There is still this pesky little voice in the back of my head saying, “Ask! Just ask! It’s a simple question!” but I feel as though there is nothing to ask anymore. Two years is a long time…or so it seems.

They surprising spoke to me first…which I tried to be casual about. I didn’t say, “What the heck is your deal man? You ignore me for two years and then you come to tell me that your ‘boo’ wants me to wait for them? Yah…NO!”  I could never see myself saying that in reality, however if I did speak like this to people it would be very gutsy of me….I simply said, “Oh okay. No problem.” and that was the end of the conversation. Yes my friend hurt me, and yes we aren’t friends anymore but I let it go….

Okay why did I have to say that? Now that song is going to be in my head all day! Stupid…movie. Okay I actually like the movie. I’ve watched it three times with my niece. I think Hans is cool and I like Olaf because when I mimic his voice my niece gives me “warm hugs.”

Anyway! That was really off topic…so if I were to go back in time and change ONE thing it would be that I would straight up ask my friend if they were alright during that first week when they started avoiding me. And if they claimed that nothing was wrong and continued to ignore me then I would simply let it be. I wouldn’t fuss about it or let myself get hurt by it (and trust me it feels like getting stabbed in the chest when the kid you’ve known since the 5th grade suddenly starts to push you out of their life). I wouldn’t have dwelled on it for so long or spent the summer going, “Maybe I should go see if they want to get a slushie?” and never bothering to get off my butt out of fear that they might say no.

I’m just happy that the two years of silence were broken…and that I didn’t have break it.

Well that’s the end of this post because apparently my computer needs to restart in exactly 4 minutes!

Hope everyone has a great summer!

I’ve watched St…

I’ve watched Starwars so many times now that I’m able to say nearly every line in the movie one after another. I also think that Obi-Wan has the best lines out of everyone. “You were the chosen one!”
His face…his face…I’m laughing….it hurts…I’m cry-laughing.
How was your week?

Orion is still kind of tired as it is Friday and Orion has had a busy week.

For My Baby Sister

Tomorrow my baby sister will be turning sixteen years old. So I thought it would be fun to make a list of 16 things that I both love and dislike about her.

Image from Google. Not my own.

Image from Google. Not my own.

  1. She giggles A LOT.
  2. She makes very unlikely but funny jokes.
  3. She acts tough…and she is.
  4. She knows who she is.
  5. She sings bad on purpose (which is hilarious).
  6. She does really cool and cute illustrations.
  7. She wears headbands and ponytails almost everyday.
  8. She likes her blue hoodie.
  9. She has a room filled with butterflies.
  10. She hits really hard.
  11. She has a fan club of 4-5 year olds who think she’s the coolest person ever.
  12. She leaves her stuff lying around the house.
  13. She is my closest friend.
  14. She is a very, very, very, very picky eater.
  15. She once said she wanted to marry an orange.
  16. She tries to hug me even though I’m uncomfortable with hugs.

Happy Birthday Sis-tur. Hope that you enjoy the gift I got you.

….I need to pay her back two bucks….

 

Love,

R.

 

 

Though I want m…

Though I want my major to be English, I find that all of my English teachers are kind of…well…they’re cool but they’re pretty weird. Then again….well I wouldn’t say I’m weird, I’m more along the lines of an interesting person who is interested in things the common person would think is a bit nerdy…such as my obsession with all things Victorian.

Orion Ryder is sleepy right now. Should Orion go to bed?

Yep.

Will Orion go  to bed?

Nope.

Random Rambling Blog Post….Why do I wake up so early?

Though I only have 3.5 days left of my time in high school, I am still finding it hard to imagine that I won’t be going back next September to say, “Hey guys! We promised to hang out last summer. What happened?”

Many of my friends feel the same way; however I’m the only one out of all of us who feels confident and ready to move on. I have no doubt in my mind that I am ready for life beyond these big brown doors, beyond this city…beyond the careful watch of my parents.

Everyday I am beginning to see how extremely precious each moment is in this life, and that I should cherish those moments, and make the best out of them. I face my fears, I take risks…well at least little ones (I’m not a fan of taking huge risks but I try once in a while…I mean as a teenager it is expected then again it gives my parents less to worry about).

3.5 days…wow. I have no regrets. None. I’m officially finished high school after my exams, and then it’s good by small town, hello small town. I like small towns.

I really don’t know what to write today…except that. It’s 4 am…oh 5 am now. I wake up at weird hours, but I wasn’t feeling so hot last night and I kind of have a weird thing going on with my head, but I’m sure I’ll survive. I have to go to school today because I’m teaching a class…yep…teaching high schoolers today. I want to teacher elementary school kids (though I have for the last year) but I have to wait until the weekend for that. I miss my kids when I don’t see them for a while. I actually want to ask if I can come in and see them occasionally when I’m back from school…my little kiddies….It’s like I’m a mama duck or something and they follow me around.

Ha…oh man, I’m tired. I’m going to go try and read a book. I don’t see a point in going back to bed if my alarm is going to sound off in about an hour.

Hope everyone is having a great week.

Happy Anniversary to my blog!