A Comfortable Chill

I’m slightly cold…but I’m comfortable. It’s a comfortable chill.

My foot is falling asleep and my thoughts are swimming about like trout in a lake. My pillow tries to warm my body but because my shirt is so thin, the cold seeps through my back and into my skin. My breaths are cold too when they enter me but warm when I release them…and my lips are soft but dry. The spits cold too.

The cold is slithering within me…and I want it to stop moving about so I can feel warmth but I know the warmth will make my eyes heavy, and I’ll pray to sleep.

 

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From Convenience to Coincidence

So…for those of you who saw my little rant “For Your Convenience” this morning, I have some news.

As I was walking to the library to hang out with some of the coolest people on this planet, I ran into the person I just finished ranting about and they apologized to me. They apologized for everything.

Weird right? That definitely was not a coincidence.

Now I feel even better. I got out all the frustration I was harbouring and then I was able to forgive them and I was able forgive myself for getting so irritated over the whole situation.

I’m really glad we ran into each other.

Stay golden everyone,

–R.

Maply…Maple-lee? What?

Yesterday my folks came up to visit me just because they were bored. We went out for dinner and I got this sandwich which they all think looks super gross…but its amazing.

It is a waffle chicken sandwich. I described it as “maply, spicy and mayoy.” to which my sister responded “Maply? Really, maply?” but it did taste like maple syrup, and then there was the hot sauce on top with the mayo and the chicken.

It was delicious!

After my mouth was on fire. I like spicy food…so I actually created a character who enjoys spicy food like myself and a character like my sister who hates spicy food. Then I made these characters go out to a restaurant that only serves spicy food. Fun times.

You may or may not see that scene in the future. I just made the comic short for fun, but these characters are apart of my graphic novel series.

After we got dinner we went out for ice cream, and as usual I was the last person to finish eating. My dad thinks it’s because I sing while I eat if there is music in the background…or I just talk to much. Even when I was a little kid and I was quiet even around my family I still ate really slow.

Right now I’m eating slowly because I’m blogging and eating. It’s kind of hard to spoon yogurt into ones mouth while typing. I kind of need to work on my eating habits though. I’ve skipped meals a lot lately. It’s seriously unhealthy.

Anyway that waffle chicken sandwich isn’t gross. It’s delicious. I had it once before at a different restaurant and it wasn’t spicy. It just had this maple flavoured mayo sauce and I think it had bacon and lettuce on it. It was almost a BLT but with chicken…and waffles.

Still, I highly recommend. Don’t dis it before you try it!

— R.

For Your Convenience

You might think that it’s cool to ignore me for  several weeks at a time, until its convenient for you but its not. You’re just so busy all the time, getting your hands into everything that you miss out on things that are way more important than the twenty things you have to do before eleven o’clock at night. Plus, while you’re out there keeping your calendar filled, you neglect the people and instead complete the tasks.

I feel a little bad, because I have a feeling that you assume I’ll be around when you’ve got time in your busy schedule. I won’t be. Sure, I’m a patient person but I’m not waiting around for someone who doesn’t give me the time of day.

Perhaps you think I didn’t “support” you as much as I should’ve. Well, I supported. Not once did you give any support back. I doubt you even took much interest in learning about what I like to do, since you seem to forget entire conversations in which I told you about myself, however I’m still able to recall what it is you’ve got to do on that busy schedule of yours. Luckily I didn’t get attached to you, or else this would be a huge mess.

Anyway, I’d kindly like to get on with my life, like I’ve been doing since January, without you popping up every couple of weeks asking me for favours. I’m not here for your convenience. If I do something nice for you its because I don’t want to seem like a huge jerk and not because I have feelings for you. Actually, we didn’t even spend enough time together for me to actually figure out how I felt about you. I don’t even know if we’re supposed to break up since you’re the only person I’ve dated, but since we weren’t “going steady” I’m assuming that I’m free to do as I please without breaking the news to you. It’s not like you had time for me anyway, because hanging out for an hour apparently takes up too much time. It should be pretty obvious that there is basically no relationship here what-so-ever.

I’d really like it if you could just stop. Its cool that you like to work and what not, but when you’re too busy for your friends and ultimately too busy for your education and other obligations then something is wrong. I wish you the best, and hope that you’ll learn to leave some blank spaces on your calendar. I’m don’t hate you and I’m not angry either, I just don’t want to be someone’s convenience anymore. I shouldn’t have, had to of been putting in all of the effort to make this work.

Well, have a good life and all. I’ll probably see you around in classes and stuff…hopefully you have time to show up.

Seriously…I don’t hate you and I wish you’d stop acting like I did you wrong. We weren’t even close to being in an actual steady relationship and we’ve barely interacted since December. It’s March now. I don’t know what I should feel guilty about?

Anyway, peace out. I have things to do like eat yogurt, drink lemon-lime Gatorade and go meet some cool kids at the library.


Hey everyone,

I don’t really like to rant on here, but I didn’t want to go ranting to my friends and family about this for a second time this week. This whole situation has just been bugging me, and I needed to get it off my chest before I started cracking down on my essays and prepping for exams. Better to clear the mind than to keep it cluttered, and this is coming from the kid who got called “Pack-rat” in grade one for having the messiest desk.

Have a great week. Enjoy the sunshine.

— R.

 

Running Weather

I’m actually going out for a run today. The weathers beautiful. I can’t pass up this chance. Plus with all these essays and presentations and so forth, a run will definitely clear my mind and get me thinking.

Not to mention I seriously need to get back in shape.

AHH! Lot of Homework

Well I’ve got a lot of homework to do this month. Busy, busy.

I am working on a fun little project. Well two actually. If the one project isn’t finished by the time its due I’ll post it online. Its just something extra that I wanted to do for bonus marks but with all the essays, books and assignments I have I’m not sure if I’ll get it finished in time. I’d love to though. I rarely get to hand in my drawings for a project.

I may or may not have my children’s book reviewed along with the rest of my creative writing portfolio. I’ve got a lot of material but its hard putting together eight pieces to showcase. I haven’t done the illustrations for the children’s book yet so that means I may or may not be staying up till odd hours drawing tonight and tomorrow. We’ll see.

Hope you all have a great rest of your week and for anyone else inching towards exams or with a ton of assignments…or just with a lot on their plate right now, we’ll get through this. One step at a time.

Stay golden,

R.

Novel Update

On Saturday I got a lot of writing done and I was finally able to complete the chapter I’d been stuck on. I can’t even remember what had stumped me in the first place but I managed to continue where I had left off. Not once did I believe I had writers block and it’s my professor’s advice that helped with that.

My creative writing professor said that writers block does not actually exist until you begin believing in it. She explained that once you say something it comes to being. She told us that if we become stuck or we are struggling in a certain area of our work that we should simply work on something else. She explained that this was better than not writing at all because as long as someone is writing they are unable to say that they’ve got writers block.

Although I’m not fully sure about the mid-section, where I continued that chapter I am 100% satisfied with the way it ended. It allowed me to move certain characters into position for the climax as well as set up important events.

I thought sharing my professor’s words on writers block would be great because while I was stuck on that chapter, I’d been working on other projects, such as my class portfolio and not once did the idea of writers block pop into my head: I was always writing.

I will update again soon. I hope you’re having a wonderful weekend!

— R.