I’ve realized today that I need to stop spending money. Before my sister moved in with me, I rarely ever went out so I didn’t spend any money unless I needed to buy groceries. Now that she’s living with me I’m ordering food all of the time (which I never did on my own), and I’m going all over the place. My 21st birthday was on Sunday, so I just got some money…and I won’t be working till May. I’m still here for another month and need to buy groceries. Sadly, I don’t want to use my birthday money for groceries because I’m saving that for a weekend trip I have coming up.
I’m usually really good with my money. I’ve never been a big spender…but then suddenly this year I’m always buying food. I don’t know if my spending is entirely linked to my sister moving in, because both of us had a very stressful year. Perhaps I spent more because I was going out to distract myself?
My sister pointed out to me that I should carry my notebooks and binders around with me everywhere like I used to, so I can work on my novels all the time. I wouldn’t mind doing that, except that I wouldn’t want people looking over my shoulder to see what it is I’m working on…and also, I get extremely paranoid when it comes to my binders and sketchbooks. I have to know where they are…and that they’re safe. If I plan on being away for more than a few days, I pack them in my luggage. I don’t know when I became so attached to them. It’s like they’ve become an extension of me. I used to be like this with my old teddy bear…so perhaps I’m just one of those people? I wonder if my future spouse will find this weird….I know my parents do.
I think that my sister understands it a little better. She’s an artist. We’ve been editing her latest work recently. She makes comics. They’re honestly really good. We’re both very critical of each others work (she’s harsher than I am), so having each other edit the first draft is always good. Her stories are funny. She used to share them with her class. Actually she’s won two awards now for her work. Lucky duck. She used to have her friends circle around her while they read her comics and they’d always go “Any updates yet!?” I’m still trying to convince her to share some of her work online. We’ll see. Maybe once she’s finished with her exams. She’s an artist, an athletic and a bio-chem major. Weird combination, I know. We’re both kind of like that though…except I’m not so good at math or science. I read. I’m really good at history…in the sense that I can remember random facts off the top of my head. Whenever I had to write papers for my classes back in high school I’d be told they sounded like stories or poems…which I can’t deny. I’m a creative writer first. Essays I do because I’m asked, not because I enjoy them.
Well, this is all for now. I’m working on my writing schedule, which I’m going to double as an exercise schedule as well. I just want to get into shape before I start working. The weathers just been really cold…I like to exercise outdoors. Especially since the trail is near the river. The scenery is perfect.
As of March 26th, I’m now 21. My family expressed to me how weird it is. Honestly, I feel the exact same as I did when I was 20, 19, 18, 5.
I’m really grateful that they all drove out to see me, since I wasn’t able to come home this year for my birthday. It meant a lot to me since I’ve been really stressed out with school lately.
As of 12 am I completed my final essay of the school year. Now, all I have to do is get through these last two weeks of classes before exams.
Since I have more free time I’ve also decided that since I am 21, I’m going to sit my butt down and get my novel published. I’ve been working on it since I was 17 years old. It’s about time. So, I’m now going to create a writing and editing schedule for myself so that I can get it done quickly. If I work hard enough I should be finished typing out the good copy by Easter (I usually write by hand).
Well until next time,
Saturday night was awesome. Although we didn’t have as many people turn up to the event as planned, the music was great and everyone had a fun time.
I know that I will definitely be checking out some of the bands after last night. There was a good variety of music. Punk, Alt’, Indie, Country. A little something for everyone, which was great. I’ve got to say checking people’s I.D. was a fun, but very cold. Glad I wasn’t the actual bouncer though. There were some characters who has a little too much to drink…and had to leave.
It was great how the bands got the audience dancing and jumping around.
After it all, my sister and I were really hungry so we order pizza around 1:30 before they closed. I made sure to apologize and tip the guy, cause I’ve worked in the food industry. I understand. I still feel pretty bad…but we were hungry and well…pizza and wings were calling my name.
Now, I have to turn my attention to the many assignments I have due…oh this is gonna be a fun week.
Till next time,
She wished that she could fade away,
Like the petals that decay
And become like dust
Upon the shelves of homes
And through the pages she would roam.
A lingering scent she might be
Amongst secrets of the wardrobe,
or within the old Curiosity Shop.
From each one she would hop,
And find herself on a train
That would run and she’d wonder
If I stay will they notice or remember?
Will my story be told if I hide in the pages?
Shall I be swept away by many imaginations,
Only to lose sight of reality,
And forget how paper cuts once made me bleed?
Then that longing to be evanescent,
Faded along with the thought
And the girl found she’d rather her story was not forgot.
Poem By O. Ryder.
March 16th, 2016.
It seems like I’ve come down with something…the weathers been switching around so much my body hasn’t had a chance to adjust, and or recover from the bug I had two weeks ago. I also haven’t been sleeping properly.
This weekend I’m going to be involved in a Battle of the Bands competition. I’m working the event…cause of my role in our schools music society. My punk and metal loving friend will most likely attend. As for my other friends…I should probably push them to come. I really just want to see some familiar faces, outside of the staff and draw in as many folks as possible. I mean, the event is free you guys. You can win money. Why wouldn’t you go? It isn’t like you have anything better to do…except maybe that 2500 word essay that’s due Monday.
Yah I have some essays I need to get working on…hopefully I can get rolling today. We’ll see.
Till next time,
I couldn’t sleep last night so I started working on some art. I drew and outlined two of my drawings last night, so I’m colouring them now. I’ll probably draw some more afterwards. We’ll see. Maybe I’ll share a couple later, depending on my mood. I’m in a pretty relaxing mood today, so I want to take it easy and work on what I like. I’ve got a lot of work to do soon, so it’s nice to take some time to myself before I get started on that.
I managed to get in a lot of writing this week. Whether it was school related, for fun or for my novel. I’m glad that I’ve been able to be productive. I finished a script, have been working through another one and did some work on my novel.
I also did a lot of bingeing when it came to television (yikes). Finished two seasons of a show in about two weeks…maybe less. Shows how interesting my days are. Actually, I’ve been feeling a little under the weather and have had some trouble sleeping, so when I couldn’t sleep it off, and I wasn’t in the mood to do anything I was watching TV. Still, despite that I managed to get a lot done. My goal is to continue to be productive.
Till next time,
Well today I was productive…in a way I didn’t predict. I decided to throw myself out there and do a handful of auditions. I figured it would be a great chance to get some experience. It wasn’t writing related…well it sort of is, as I do tend to read my scripts aloud. It was a lot of fun though.
So, my tip of the day is don’t be afraid to put yourself out there. You’ll never know what you’re capable of unless you try.
I managed to get in a little editing the other night. Was up past midnight typing. It was fun. I wish I’d done some more today, but instead I decided to be lazy and lay about. I did do some reading, but it wasn’t exactly productive, as it wasn’t for school. At least I enjoyed myself. I cooked up a steak for dinner tonight. Had a nice salad with it. I’m trying to eat better. More preparing meals at home, and less ordering pizza. Hopefully I’ll hit the gym more often as well. I think my laziness is linked to some other things…and not being as active as I used to be is probably contributing to it.
Well, the editing is really coming along. I’m pleased with it so far, though I wish I would do larger chunks of it…increase my one or two chapters a day to four or five. I type and read quite fast, so if I really wanted I could finish transferring it all in a couple of days. Thing is I’ve been feeling a big sluggish so I’m taking my precious time. I don’t know, maybe this is just a temporary thing? I feel a bit lazy now but I’ll be energetic and ready to work in a couple of days.
Anyway, I’m going to start settling down for the night. Seems, my sleep schedule is slightly back on track. No more staying up till three in the morning. I’ll try to get some more editing in tomorrow evening. I’ve got to get strict with myself again before more school assignments pop up.
Till next time,