The End: Novel Update

November 29th, 2013 I began writing this novel. At the time I had been taking a break from writing, as I’d been going through serious writers block. Then I came up with an entirely new story, that was begging to be written. Today, November 29th, 2016 I completed this novel…and after working on it for the last three years I don’t know what to do with myself.

I mean, it is broken up into three books, so I can begin working on part two but…whoa. Three years of my life. I wonder how much my writing style has changed between the first and last paragraphs. I wrote two-hundred and forty pages. Well then. That’s neat.

I don’t know how to react right now. I randomly started tearing up, and now I feel like running around and shouting to the heavens, “I did it! I finished!”

To think I’d had serious writers block before starting this novel. It was at the beginning of the 9th grade, and I’d written six books in a series. I was trying to edit them all…and I’d realized that there were too many loose ends and a lot of things that needed work. While I was editing them, I kept trying to start other novels and I’d write a couple of chapters and then give up. It was horrible. Then I fell in love with the idea of this novel, simply because of an image from a dream I had. The novel haunted me. I tried to push it out of my head but it needed to be written. Now it is finally finished…whoa. This is so weird.

I have such mixed feelings right now. I managed to reach my goal. I just thought it would be cool to finish on the same day that I’d started, I guess determination is really…important. Now I feel like I can accomplish anything. I’m going to begin editing this as soon as all of my essays are done. This is so awesome.

 

Whoa…I feel like I’m all over the place right now. I just read a bit of the first page and I was like “Wow…my writing has gotten a lot better. Thank you creative writing courses.” This is just too much for me to take in right now.

Especially since I was having such a hard time earlier this year and over the summer. I’d felt as though I’d barely had any time to write this year but I still managed to reach my goal.

For those of you still working away at your novels, keep going. Even if it takes you three or four years to complete a work, the feeling when you’ve finished…I can’t explain it but it is wonderful. I haven’t felt like this since the day I finished writing my first book.

This is just awesome. Okay…goodbye for now.

–R.

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Journel 11 – 2014

Speak to me with softness for your throat is tight. Look at me with kindness though you hate me inside. Pretend for me that this tension between us doesn’t exist. Smile with me, even if you are bitter.

For I don’t know that you are offended. I don’t see that I’ve done something wrong.

So for yourself please move along and act with glee. Your happiness is most important to yourself as well as to me.

 

I’m Ready to Wake Up Now

“It would be great to wake up in the perfect life…to wake, and be cherished and adored by everyone,” she whispered to him. “It would be as though I’d just had a bad dream, and when I woke, I’d be waking up to greet myself. It would be like a rebirth…only a rebirth into perfection and never ending happiness.”

He stared at her for a long time as she spoke, watching the corners of her lips twitch as she tried to force the smile on her face to stay in place. Then he noticed something slithering down her cheek, leaving a steam of glitter on her face. He met her glossed eyes. She was smiling at him.

“I’m ready to wake up now.”


 

February 24th, 2016.

O. Ryder.

I had to fight the tears…

I recommend not watching this before you have to go out somewhere. I somehow managed to choke back my tears. I didn’t think I would make it to the end of that video but I did. I honestly want to cry my eyes out. That’s such a beautiful tribute to his late wife.

Bless this family.

I just had to share this.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/abagg/this-guy-recreated-photos-of-his-late-wife-with-his-young-da?bffbvid&utm_term=4ldqpj5#.xlMz0y02W

Writing and Life Update

Wow this weeks just been flying by. I can’t believe it’s almost Friday!

I’ve gotten a couple of projects on the go, which is fantastic. I started getting into serious script writing. I’m really enjoying it. It’s different from writing novels and poetry but it’s just as fun.

As for my novel I’m working on it still. Planning out some minor details. It’s been fun. It really has. I mean, it’s almost like doing homework for school but this is the kind of homework that I enjoy.

I might start posting a short story that I wrote a while back just…I don’t know. I found it the other day and thought, “With a little editing here and there this could be a good story.” So I’ll be working on making it more presentable. The version I found was a draft. I haven’t received any feedback on it…so I’ll probably end up showing it to my sister first. She’s an honest kid.

I’m not sure how much work I’ll get done with my niece over though. She’s currently taking her nap so I have time to relax until she wakes up.

She’s a funny little girl. We spent all morning playing outside with my brother and my mom.

It’s great being back home with my folks. They really give me the drive I need to work.

Speaking of work, I’m starting that soon. I’m excited…very, very, very excited.

Actually my dad is more excited than I am.

Our family needs to do a lot of…nice happy things right now. We’ve got a lot going on…. but I’m just going to stay strong and be positive. I’m happy that I finally got hired by someone, that just takes some weight off my dad. Plus having my niece over should keep everyone in good spirits.

I find that if you’re feeling down, its best to go outside and get some fresh air. Exercise is amazing…it does a lot for your mind and body. I like to run. Since I’ve gotten back into running I’ve been feeling like my usual self. I’m writing music and poetry, working on my novels and joking around with my sister.

Happy Thursday!

P.S. do not drive your Barbie’s off a steep cliff (the porch) or they might flip upside down and lose their tiara’s.


That featured image was drawn by moi. Isn’t it awesome? I was like, “Mom look at my beautiful picture of an alien with a gun!” and my mom gave me that “Are you for real?” look and then I just walked away…

I bet my niece would like it…the alien is a villain in my story. Yah….okay bye!

SCHOOL IS DONE! :D

I am officially finished my first year of university! Woo hoo! I made it! I feel really good about my exams and I’m glad that I’m finally able to go home and stay there for some time.

Don’t get my wrong I love this campus and everything but residence life isn’t really for me. The rooms are really dull, it’s hard writing in a room like this. When I go home I’ll write and write and write and write. I love writing. I love it. I really love it. I treated myself to a delicious lunch and everything! Today has been fantastic! I’m so happy feel like busting out my moves and blasting music super loud…but instead I’m going to be respectful of others and just treat myself to a delicious lunch.

It snowed today. It was so cold going to my exam this morning…earlier exams and snow are not a good idea. Least it woke me up a little more.

Salad tastes so good. Seriously…it’s delicious. I love cucumbers and tomatoes and lecture. It was like all my favourite vegetables in one place! Plus they’re on my sandwich! Woo! BLT! I love bacon!

Yep…bacon.

My meal was totally healthy until I remembered the mountain dew, the chocolate bar and the BLT. The salad was so yummy though…ahh…best meal I’ve had at this school.

Seriously…stir fry and salad are my favourite things to eat here.

Well I gotta get eating so that I can start sweeping my floor and packing up my bedding. I am so happy I kept my winter jacket here…I’m a smart cookie. Well at least that’s what my nana says. I love my nana she’s so sweet. She makes me smile. I love my family…I’m so happy. I get to go home and see my folks and actually stay longer than a day!

1,001 Followers

Wow…I’m so happy I was notified about this before I went to bed. For some reason I thought I was still around 500 and I guess with all this school stress I wasn’t able to put as much focus into my blog and my novel as I’d liked to.

November went by and I didn’t work on my novel once…. I will in between all of this studying though. Exams involve writing, and my writing can only improve when I’m writing.

Luckily even though I didn’t actually get to write anything and wasn’t able to give as many writing tips and share my favourite quotes with everyone like I normally do, I got to share pieces of my life with all of you. Even the pieces that I wasn’t comfortable with sharing at first…and I’m glad I did now, because your encouraging words really helped give me that extra push to just get out of bed and keep on trying my best and working my hardest.

So…thanks everyone.

What makes this so special is that I hit 1,000 at hour my niece was born.

I’m so happy that I decided to start this blog.

Procrastination

I’ve been dealing with procrastination for years, and in my final year of high school I thought that I’d finally broken away from it. I hadn’t everything in on time, and was always getting my homework done right away so that I wouldn’t have to worry about it later on. Unfortunately, this being my first year at university, it seems that I’ve been procrastinating the start of my assignments. I was aware of this essay weeks ago, it’s due next week and all I’ve done is decide on what it is I’m going to discuss. Essay’s haven’t really been my strong point…especially those awful five paragraph ones. I didn’t get the hang of essay writing until I was in the 12th grade. No one really took the time to teach me in elementary school, so when I got to high school I sort of pretended I knew how to do it and figured it out…well…sort of. At least I was getting B’s on my work rather than C’s.

So I’ve been here since 11 am trying to start an essay. I’ve got my notes nicely laid out, a couple scribbles about what it is I want to say. I reread one of the texts I want to discuss and then I thought “I’m going to watch something” however the show not only irritated me but it infuriated me. It is one of my favourite shows and I just got annoyed with the way that the writers have been reusing scenarios over and over again throughout the series and just changing the characters in each. I understand that it isn’t always easy to come up with new ideas, but I also feel like writers are wasting their talent when they do things like that. Here I am, trying to think of a good thesis for my essay and these guys are just reusing the same scenes? Seriously?

I understand that that sort of thing pays the bills, but I strongly believe that you should be writing for yourself with an audience in mind not writing for an audience and putting all of your ideas to the side. Sure getting feed back from your audience worked for Charles Dickens (whose novels I enjoy reading in my spare time) but will you actually be happy with the final product?

Many writers who were pressured into going with one ending, or removing scenes are chapters were unsatisfied with the way their stories were presented in the end. A lot of them republished their novels and plays with “new” endings, putting back what was originally there in order to stop torturing themselves.

I know that I myself would not be happy handing in this essay for example, if I knew that it was not my best work. If it doesn’t satisfy what I believe to be good, than it cannot satisfy anyone else.

As I write this I continue to put off the creation of my thesis, however I’m writing something and that will put me in a writing mood (hopefully). I even cleaned my room so that I could have clear thoughts while studying for my exams. The sooner I finish this essay, the sooner I can begin preparing for my exams.

I’ve procrastinated everything that wasn’t for marks it seems. I will defeat this monster…I will. I just need to remember what got me to fight against procrastination the first time. I don’t think it was just having a spare period to work on assignments. Maybe it was because the people that I was surrounding myself with were working hard as well? I’m not too sure.

Anyone out there have the same problem? I seriously need help…I don’t want to procrastinate studying (I usually don’t but my parents aren’t around to nag me).

Well…I’ve got about 20 minutes to come up with a thesis. I sort of have one now…. Ha I’ll use this. It sucks now but I’ll fix it up later. I just wanna get this thing started.

Hope everyone is enjoying their week so far!

— O. Ryder