These last few days have been pretty rough. Today I had an exam and there have been a lot of personal family issues going on….
It’s just been rough. I usually bottle everything up inside. I’m a person who keeps to themselves when it comes to stuff like this. Especially with family situations, I feel like I suddenly need to act tough and compose my emotions around others. I realized this after my grandmother passed away. I never knew that I had this strong side to me. I’ve always been the cry baby out of my siblings…I mean I got teary eyed while watching How to Train Your Dragon (haven’t watched it since due to being laughed at). I’m surprised at my own ability to suddenly take on a different role. At times where I myself might be feeling upset and scared, I automatically smile, laugh and go on like everything is perfectly fine so that when those around me need someone strong to hold them up, I can be there for them. I’m not sure if this is exactly healthy…but I do it. I do it all of the time despite how I’m feeling.
Sometimes stuff happens in life that just kicks you in the gut and all you can do is ignore the pain and keep on pushing because the world keeps spinning. Time won’t stop because you’re faced with something that seems impossible…and heart wrenching…and completely out of your control. Life goes on and on and on and that’s it.
I hope I can make it through the rest of this week without completely breaking down. If I’m going to punch my pillow and blast music into my ears then I’d rather do that at home than while I’m here at school.
I hope the sun’s out tomorrow morning…just for a little while. I look forward to seeing the sunshine pouring into my windows.
I can’t stand being in the dark right now…all this grey and black and gloominess isn’t doing me any good. I really don’t want to be away from my family right now. Honestly I want to go home. I know I’m only here for a few days and then I get to be with my folks till September but I’m one of those people who needs to be around their family when stuff is bothering me.
Sorry for making another emo-ish post. I’ve been writing some pretty gloomy stuff lately. I seem to write happier things when I’m collaborating with my sister. She’s a funny kid.
How do you push through rough times?
From now on I’m blaming the dinosaurs for my problems… those dumb ancient beasts with their big heads and little arms. Getting blown up by meteors and stuff. Little Foot, it’s all your fault! YEP! YEP! YEP! I blame you and Spike!
I have been trying to find the perfect studying method for myself…so far I haven’t found one. For my most recent test I decided to try studying using songs I made up. Then I recorded and played and sang along to the songs over and over and over. I read my notes while singing as well. I thought that since I seem to be good at learning music by ear, I could do that. I also tend to remember things that I read, that is if I’m interested in it. However textbooks (no offence) are not that interesting. I felt like if I read, sang, and listened all at once, I would be fine. However that was not the case.
I won’t tell you what I got on the test but…. It’s not something I’m very proud of. Especially after all that work I did. To be honest I felt like I had gotten at least an 80% on the test when I was finished.
I don’t know what else to try. Just reading my notes over never seemed to work for me in the past, so I felt that mixing things up would be better. I’ve tried writing my notes out again as well but it hasn’t helped.
If this helps at all: according to a test I did back in 8th grade (thank God I remember this) I learn well by communicating with others. Which is strange to most of my teachers because I’m known as “the quiet kid.” I can recall my teacher going, “Really? That’s weird. I never would have thought….” and then just looking at the test with these wide owl eyes as he scratched his head.
Anyways does anyone have any advice for me? At this point I’d be grateful just to get a, “Keep trying your hardest!” I am so tired…
A very tired, hungry, and still feeling a bit ill…
- Find your inner child: to write for kids, you need to become a kid.
- Take risks: If you want to write the word fart, WRITE IT!
- Talk to kids: Seriously, you can have some pretty great conversations with a 4 year old about why they don’t like hotdogs.
- Read kids books: Find that old Curious George and read Monkey, READ!
- Ask people about their kids: Sometimes people’s kids do some pretty whacky stuff.
- Think about what you did as a kid: Did you cut off your sisters doll heads? Did you think if you poured milk in the garden the tomatoes would turn white?
- Be CREATIVE! Do I really need to explain this? PURPLE!
- Be real: seriously write from your heart okay? You and the pencil…or keyboard or whatever…ARE ONE!
I’ll be giving tips often. If there’s anything specific you want to ask me about, feel free to comment. There are no bad/dumb questions. There are only bad/dumb answers.