You Feel Me?: Conveying Emotion in My Work

At the moment, I am currently working on an essay.

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“Where did all this homework come from!” (Image from Golden Time).

 

Fun right? Well, the information I’m gathering is kind of interesting. I also think my topic and thesis are cool…so that’s a start.

I did update my novel the other day with a really humorous chapter. I don’t think I’ve ever actually laughed that much while writing. I don’t know if it was because it was late at night and I was tired, or because it was actually funny. I’d like to think it was actually funny. I’ll find out when I edit later.

Whenever I actually feel what I’m putting down, I know that I’ll be satisfied with the final product. That’s why I don’t like to write about things I don’t know about…it isn’t that I refuse to do so, but I feel like it isn’t genuine and I don’t like to force emotion into my writing. I want the emotion to be real. If I’m not feeling anything, then I don’t think it is worth keeping. It took me a lot of trial and error when writing romance between characters when I first started.

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(Quote from 2D-Kun. Golden Time).

 

I know that there are some twelve and thirteen year olds out there who are in relationships, and claim to know everything there is to know about love. I wasn’t one of those kids. I’m not afraid to admit to it. I had people I liked, but I’d never dated anyone. My first experience with heartbreak was when I was sixteen…and it wasn’t because I was dumped.

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“Boo hoo! My heart hath been broken!” (Found on Google).

 

I wasn’t in a relationship at all.

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“Stop. Get some help.” (Image From Golden Time).

It was that experience that opened my eyes to this flaw in my writing. I stopped trying to write about those types of intimate relationships, because I finally had some understanding of how they actually worked. Instead I wrote what I knew. I knew about liking someone, but not wanting to ruin my friendship with them. I knew what heartbreak felt like, and realized that I am capable of jealousy…an emotion I hadn’t truly felt before to that degree. When I started to write the things I knew, I was actually feeling the emotion in my words.

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I didn’t have to pull a rabbit out of a hat to write about these things because I understood the feelings I wanted to convey. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve been able to write about different aspects of relationships. Either things I’ve experienced, or that people close to me have gone through. Sometimes, I’ll admit, using another persons experience is difficult but it is still better than trying to conjure up some plastic emotion that you have no clue what to do with.

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Boo from Monsters Inc.

 

Just because you write fiction doesn’t mean that you can’t be honest.

 

Anyway, I’d better get going. I still have a few more articles to look at.

Till next time,

–R.

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From Convenience to Coincidence

So…for those of you who saw my little rant “For Your Convenience” this morning, I have some news.

As I was walking to the library to hang out with some of the coolest people on this planet, I ran into the person I just finished ranting about and they apologized to me. They apologized for everything.

Weird right? That definitely was not a coincidence.

Now I feel even better. I got out all the frustration I was harbouring and then I was able to forgive them and I was able forgive myself for getting so irritated over the whole situation.

I’m really glad we ran into each other.

Stay golden everyone,

–R.

For Your Convenience

You might think that it’s cool to ignore me for  several weeks at a time, until its convenient for you but its not. You’re just so busy all the time, getting your hands into everything that you miss out on things that are way more important than the twenty things you have to do before eleven o’clock at night. Plus, while you’re out there keeping your calendar filled, you neglect the people and instead complete the tasks.

I feel a little bad, because I have a feeling that you assume I’ll be around when you’ve got time in your busy schedule. I won’t be. Sure, I’m a patient person but I’m not waiting around for someone who doesn’t give me the time of day.

Perhaps you think I didn’t “support” you as much as I should’ve. Well, I supported. Not once did you give any support back. I doubt you even took much interest in learning about what I like to do, since you seem to forget entire conversations in which I told you about myself, however I’m still able to recall what it is you’ve got to do on that busy schedule of yours. Luckily I didn’t get attached to you, or else this would be a huge mess.

Anyway, I’d kindly like to get on with my life, like I’ve been doing since January, without you popping up every couple of weeks asking me for favours. I’m not here for your convenience. If I do something nice for you its because I don’t want to seem like a huge jerk and not because I have feelings for you. Actually, we didn’t even spend enough time together for me to actually figure out how I felt about you. I don’t even know if we’re supposed to break up since you’re the only person I’ve dated, but since we weren’t “going steady” I’m assuming that I’m free to do as I please without breaking the news to you. It’s not like you had time for me anyway, because hanging out for an hour apparently takes up too much time. It should be pretty obvious that there is basically no relationship here what-so-ever.

I’d really like it if you could just stop. Its cool that you like to work and what not, but when you’re too busy for your friends and ultimately too busy for your education and other obligations then something is wrong. I wish you the best, and hope that you’ll learn to leave some blank spaces on your calendar. I’m don’t hate you and I’m not angry either, I just don’t want to be someone’s convenience anymore. I shouldn’t have, had to of been putting in all of the effort to make this work.

Well, have a good life and all. I’ll probably see you around in classes and stuff…hopefully you have time to show up.

Seriously…I don’t hate you and I wish you’d stop acting like I did you wrong. We weren’t even close to being in an actual steady relationship and we’ve barely interacted since December. It’s March now. I don’t know what I should feel guilty about?

Anyway, peace out. I have things to do like eat yogurt, drink lemon-lime Gatorade and go meet some cool kids at the library.


Hey everyone,

I don’t really like to rant on here, but I didn’t want to go ranting to my friends and family about this for a second time this week. This whole situation has just been bugging me, and I needed to get it off my chest before I started cracking down on my essays and prepping for exams. Better to clear the mind than to keep it cluttered, and this is coming from the kid who got called “Pack-rat” in grade one for having the messiest desk.

Have a great week. Enjoy the sunshine.

— R.

 

Dear R2 (Lol…I love Star Wars…but this isn’t a Star Wars Post. Sorry!)

This is all new to me, so I guess its normal to feel a little nervous and sometimes even a bit insecure. However, I want you to know that whenever we hang out you make me feel calm, and happy and I feel like I can be myself around you.

Thank you for being my friend.

— R


…my blogs starting to sound like a journal or something.

Sorry for posting this on a blog that you don’t know I have…I’ll tell you in person someday. You really are a great friend. P.S I’m going to call you R2 from now on. It’s just too perfect! I’m gonna go laugh like a total dork now and hope no one hears me!

WHAHAHAHA!

…That was evil sounding. O.O

Friday Mornings with Ryder. “You Wanna Date?” ft. Orion.

“Alright. Puff up that chest. Keep that head up. Good, now make sure you’ve got your shirt on frontwards…we don’t want another one of those incidents. Good. Good.”

I blankly stared at myself in the mirror. “I didn’t sleep last night.”

“Forget sleep! Who needs sleep! This isn’t about you sleeping this is about you being confident and awesome and going out there and saying, ‘Why hello there’.”

I groaned. “Dude…can’t I just like not?”

“You wanna date?”

“Yes.”

“Then don’t be such a little–.”

“OH KAY! Sheesh…no need to be so hard on me. I’m still figuring this stuff out okay?”

“Well figure this stuff out faster Ryder! You’ve only got so much time!”

I dragged my feet back to bed. “Wake me up when the sun’s actually in the sky.”

“The sun waits for no man!”

“Yah…that’s why I’m waiting for the sun.” I sighed. Then I sighed again and rolled onto my back. Then I rolled onto my stomach again and propped my chin up. “I can’t sleep.”

“Love will do that to you.”

“I’m not in love. I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I snapped.

They chuckled. “Then why were you so excited for Friday?”

“Because. I have lots of exciting things to do on Friday.”

“Like what, you don’t even go out for drinks in the evening like normal people. What is wrong with you? Who sits at home and watches cartoons until bed?”

“We do that Orion. We do that.”

“Yah well…I want to do something different this weekend! Let’s get ourselves a date!”

I rolled onto my back again. “I dunno bruh.”

“It’ll be FUN!”

“It’ll be fun…it’ll be fun. Go by yourself.”

“Why are you in denial? Stop denying your true feelings!” cried Orion.

I sighed. “Because I’m not going to let myself get caught up in my emotions and have my heart torn out again. Remember last time?”

“Last time was different. This time it’s for real!” Orion shouted, shaking me. “Doesn’t it feel different?”

“Remember how I felt like throwing up yesterday?”

“Yes?”

“Stop shaking me…my stomach feels gross.”

“Oh great! Getting all gross on the weekend! How could you! You planned this! You planned this Ryder! I’ll never forgive you!”

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

“Hey Ryder, your alarms going off.”

“Hooray…” I moaned, pulling myself out of bed. “I’m going to blog now.”

“But…but YOU NEED TO PLAN FOR YOUR DATE!”

“I don’t have a date! Do you see me dating anyone!? NO! I’m going to blog like a respectable person and then I’m going to get dressed and blah, blah, blah, blah!”

Orion frowned. “Fine. Be that way…jerk.”


Enjoy your Friday folks.

I’ll be getting ready for class now…since I’ve got nothing better to do. I love my life.

Peace!

–R.

Novel Update: And Off Topic Ramblings

Hello everyone! I hope that you’ve all been having an excellent week so far.

I got a lot of writing down the other day. The story is moving along quite nicely. I feel as though the transitions have been smooth so far…but of course I’ll know for sure once I begin editing.

…Okay this is off topic but I just gotta warn people…don’t do sit ups after you eat. I now have a really bad stomach ache.

Back on topic (ouch!), I find that writing about things such as love and romance in my novels is tough for me. I mean…I’m more of a fiction, sci-fi, historical, adventure kinda writer… I just have romance as a subplot because…well I like my characters to be as close to human as possible, you know? Thing is, I’ve never dated. I’ve never kissed anyone. I’m 19 years old okay? I don’t need to be rushing into anything. That whole high school dating thing never really got to me… my only “kiss” was on the cheek and the only time I was close to dating someone I was to chicken to make a move so I lost a good friend and a potential date. Woo! Way to go R!

As my sister would say, “You darn messed up!”

So…I had to write some romantic scenes and boy did I blush. I don’t know why, but I get really emotionally attached to my characters. I literally had to remember how I felt at age 14 when I got kissed on the cheek by my best friend…and crush at the time. It was awkward. I elbowed them in the face…. Yah…. That’s probably why I haven’t been kissed by anyone since. Maybe they all have a secret club or something where they’re like “R elbows people in the face! Don’t kiss them!”

Maybe if you didn’t sneak up on me, I wouldn’t have elbowed you? Ever think about that?

Anyways I spend enough time watching chick-flicks and Say Yes to the Dress and all that other junk. I really don’t mind it but it bothers me how all of these people are so focused on this ONE DAY. It’s not the wedding that’s important it is the life that you and your significant other will have together. I don’t understand why people can’t grasp that? It’s probably one of the big reasons why people are having issues in their marriages. They wanna go back to that “special day” when really every day should be special because you’re together, working as a team.

Well…that was off topic. It’s wedding season, and I’m planning a fictional wedding between two characters. I guess it’s not that off topic.

So, I got some writing done. Survived the two little romance scenes. I don’t know how well I’m going to create a fictional romance when I haven’t had a real romantic relationship. I’m doing my best.

Happy writing to you all! Enjoy the weather this weekend

I’ll be working…every day. Gotta pay for school somehow right? Man…education shouldn’t be this expensive. I should be able to pay for every year of school easily after working 3-4 months in the summer. It’s ridiculous.

If You Are the Summer….

If you are the summer, then I am winter.

I blow in cold and harsh, knocking you off your feet.

You brighten my skies and show me all there is to see.

I make you numb and breathe slithers down your spine.

You keep me warm and you tell me that you’re mine.

— Orion Ryder.

It’s Just a Name: Is the Name That I Give to My Character Actually Important?

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It’s one thing to slap a label onto a character, it’s another to give it a name.

Not everyone takes this into consideration when creating their own characters, however what they don’t seem to realize is that names are symbolic and often reflect ones personality. This means that the name you give to your character should have some sort of significance.

A great example of a well named character, is the character Daisy from the novel, The Great Gatsby. Being named after a flower adds to her extremely, dainty and feminine persona. The flower itself, also symbolize unhappy love, which is significant to the character Daisy because her marriage is an unhappy one, full of careless lies.

“I read in a book once that a rose by any other name would smell as sweet, but I’ve never been able to believe it. I don’t believe a rose WOULD be as nice if it was called a thistle or a skunk cabbage.”
L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables.

If Daisy had been given a name like Rogue, meaning rebel, her personality would not be reflected in the same way. This is because the name Rogue gives the impression of someone, strong, and daring. The name also would not be a reflection of Daisy’s unhappy marriage.

Putting thought into a character’s name builds onto the characters personality, acts as a form of symbolism, and a character’s name can also have significance to their overall story.

So to answer the question above?

Yes, the name you give to your character is actually important.

Tip: Look up the meaning of a name before giving it to a character. This can help you pick a name that suits your characters personality and it also helps save your lovely’s (characters) from getting slapped with labels.